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Monday, December 28, 2009

New Year's Resolutions, really?

There are many reasons for poor NYR outcomes. Much of this can be attributed to a lack of skills for goal setting, which may include planning, developing a support system, or finding at least one appropriate role model. More frequently though, the NYRs themselves are formulated on unrealistic expectations. Ouch.

Realistic or not, there are some goals which are harder to achieve than others. Just ask any recovering addict who's been clean for a few 24-hours -and- has put forth the effort necessary to get more than that which was lost while using. ;oD

Returning to realistic NYRs, how about this list?

fugi's 2010 resolutions

  • not get struck by lightning
  • not participate in any Ponzi schemes
  • knit more of my yarn stash than add to it (gulp!)
  • resume bonsai
  • reduce household excesses (♥ Freecycle™)
  • keep learning, doing and sharing a wide variety of new things
  • swear less, or at least more creatively
  • remember not to take myself so fucking seriously

Ok, I'm satisfied with this year's objectives. Hey, 2010... Game ON. I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Like a Sore Thumb

~ originally published to Newsvine on November 24, 2009 ~

Tinfoil Fedora, (c)fugitive247 Some people demand more scrutiny than others. Then there's that old saying which poses that just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get you. Ah, the grand Boogey Man incarnate rears his shadowy head. They. Them. Those entities who are not you.

They were at it again. Again? Hell, They are never not at it, whatever "it" is.

Jesse had been aware of covert eyes and ears since junior high school. Periodic visits from dark-suited agents asking personal questions about loved ones were par for the course. Did she know if so-and-so is frequently drunk or uses drugs? Is the subject having any financial difficulties? Is there a gambling problem? Does this person go to strip clubs, or ever hire prostitutes? Even if any of those scenarios were relevant, Jesse certainly never would have indicated as much to some federal wanna-be goons.

In public the goons were usually subtle, nearly indistinguishable from regular folks in a crowd, depending on the venue. Still, if one paid attention They could be spotted. After all, who else would be stupid enough to wear Florsheims with faded denims and a knock-off Grateful Dead concert tee to a NORML meeting? At those kinds of functions there might occasionally be only one of Them. Usually They traveled in pairs. Just like nuns, Jesse had mused on many occasions.

A certain level of paranoia can be a healthy device for self-preservation. Compound these levels between two individuals whose pre-couple lives have both been impacted by Them since childhood and things can get pretty intense. Jesse discovered this the hard way.

The funeral home was quite crowded when Jesse and her mate arrived. The two were greeted warmly outside the entrance by a few family members. Once inside the atrium Jesse and her sweetheart each signed the guest book. A relative directed her to an impressive display table laden with mementos of the deceased's personal and professional life. There They were at the table, supervising the appreciation of a dead man's remarkable achievements.

Jesse's late grandfather had been an highly awarded career NSA employee. Her mate's late father had been a career military trouble-shooter, active throughout southeast Asia during the Vietnam War era. Plus, there remained the close ties with others who could not discuss their professional lives, thanks to tight security clearances. It didn't help matters that Jesse's mate had personally drawn Their attention more than once. Nor did it help that, as an over-zealous rookie investigator, one of Them had relentlessly interrogated her mate more than a decade prior.

Jesse knew of the infamous crackdown. He was in his teens when it happened. They swarmed on multiple locations, cutting a swath of chaos. Professional conduct and constitutional rights be damned; all were considered guilty if for no other reason than association.

"Sundowner," he whispered into Jesse's ear, subtly cocking his head in Their direction. She nodded, casually guiding him towards a favorite uncle. During the service They lined Themselves along the rear wall, obvious strangers observing that which was none of Their business.

At the podium Jesse introduced herself for the benefit of her grandfather's friends. At the rear of the room she noticed two of Them scanning the guest book.

Jesse addressed her family, speaking cryptically of a long-standing rift in need of resolution. That's when she noticed one of Them gesture to another, as if to indicate identification of her mate. Thank goodness that Their attention following the memorial was focused on answering attendees' questions, and collecting table display items that were on loan from the agency. Jesse and her mate slipped away unnoticed.

"Do you think They recognized me? You know, Him?" asked Jesse's mate.

Jesse lit a cigarette, shrugged her shoulders, then put the van into drive. "I'm not 100% sure, baby, but if They did, They now know me, too."

Monday, December 14, 2009

Exploring the Rabbit Hole

Is there such a thing as too much inter-connectedness? This question has been gnawing at me for quite some time, especially where it pertains to online activities. Web development over the past few years has brought us some potentially fantastic innovations. Admittedly, I've not been an early adopter of many of them, such as OpenID and the then fledgling API technological offerings. Back then it was firmly cemented within my synapses that:

  • blogs were blogs, period
  • social networks were social networks, period
  • forums were forums, period
  • ad infinitum, each followed by a period

These were all accompanied with the steady background droning of one very loud hampster wheel: How much risk are "open anything" users going to expose themselves to before key elements of privacy and overall security are addressed? Some who are familiar with my past writings from other venues might now be bracing themselves for one of my customary rants. Nope, not today, friends. ;oD

Today's goal is a simple one. It mostly involves getting a feel for my present comfort level with the liabilities and assets of becoming more inter-connected. I'm considering possible integration of a few other accounts which have been languishing for a long time. Questions and comments are welcome. Considerate conduct is appreciated. Witty banter is adored. Trolls will be auctioned off to the highest (read: most dangerously clever) bidder.